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My life is currently one ball of STRESS!

My body is aching – I have not been able to do yoga stretches for two days due to my body being unwilling or unable to even flex itself. I had to take painkillers (which I hate) to go to work.

No wonder that close to the end of the day I was at breaking point.

I nearly unravelled at the office!

Although was able to hold back tears during a discussion with a manager about my stress levels – but only until I got home.

Here are the reasons:

• I am taking 5 modules towards a IT diploma at UNISA. Three subjects are programming languages which I love, but it takes time and concentration for a sort of beginner like me. While I’ve coded html websites before, I have not done Javascript nor the ‘simplified’ version of C++ .
• I’ve apparently not gotten over being the subject of office gossip. I mentioned to one such colleague that there are  people at work walk into my office smiling to my face, then gossiping behind my back!

(Passive-aggressive, I know. (Argghhh, I feel more unravelling happening just writing about it. Let me think of that killer whale who ate his trainer – I should find one of those to take to our wellness days at work.)

• My family hardly knows what I look like anymore.  the only way I’ve even been in contact with my sister is through Facebook.  I miss my nieces and nephew sooo much.  But unfortunately I work 8 hours a day and have to study for another 5 and I stress even more when I fall behind with my studies.
• Our team manager believes I’m superwoman and wants me to go on every course known to mankind, regardless of the fact that I’m already overextended at work, home and everywhere in between.
• I’m unable to get to blogging every day :-(

However, not all is lost.  

My office buddy and I are back on friendly terms, although I still give him a hard time now and then about believing stupid gossip.

I’m so excited about my studies and the possibilities.  We are in a restructuring process – a good one – at the office, which will leave many opportunities open.  And a colleague said something that gave me an idea (which I can’t even articulate yet).